Le Journale

So I finally have my book order arrived safely! I ordered Mansfield Park from The Book Depository and have waited impatiently until it landed safely yesterday. This book is in Clothbound series of Penguin classic publishing, so it is normal for bragging it, don't you think? I am waiting for The Woman in White to be the first gothic classic work on my shelf, in this series too.

We spent Eid's holidays to Anyer beach. It was on July 20. Great times, like ever. Spending time with your big family is always fun, right? But the journey to our first destination: Pesona Krakatau cottage (where we always spend time at) was tiring. We got stuck on traffic jam for hours. Like we were ready at 6 am in the morning and still could not be nearer to our first destination after almost 10 hours on car. It was hell. But then we changed our plan and rent a cottage at Siyoni Sea Side Cottage instead. It turned out good. Not as good as Pesona Krakatau cottage, but just fine. There are pool, cafe, basketball and tennis courts, a lot of bungalows in premium condition, and of course, the beach view! 

After getting stuck in never-ending traffic jam, we could reach nearest cottage! Siyoni Seaside Cottage!

Minal aidin wal faidzin... I find myself tired with broadcast messages telling the sender how guilty they are. Yet, they broadcast it. It means they do not purely write it. They might just copy and then paste it form other sources. So, what is the meaning of forgiving then? It is better if you don't have to ask for apologizing. Deep inside, we know we are guilty. We also know some people who once had guilt towards us. But you are less than a good person if you keep anger inside of you for a long time and wait for the Eid to forgive them all. Grow up. If they do bad to you, just let them go. Forgive them immediately. And then leave. They are not worth your time, your presence. If you think they would do bad or offend you with their corny jokes, just leave. It is for your own good. Walking alone or having no friend at all is much better than having them in your life. Just stick with some people that you think having the same vibes as you. :) 

Maybe it is not love.  Maybe it is no longer affection.  But ever since you leave, there is this big hole in my chest.  Loving you was not like having pest.  It was perfection.  It was, love... Love you once, write about you forever.  Love you twice, we might go together. However... Walk the love to the stop The love we chopped For woeful ego We each grow \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\ This might be the end Neither as foe nor friend \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\

Don't be sad, for Allah SWT is always with us... I feel strongly blue these days. See? Profound happiness is not meant for us. Life always has its own way to ruin, spoil, and tear it into pieces. Previously, I posted about how happy I was. It lasted for several days. And yeah, I was utterly happy because of a lot of things related to my future. But then these three days, I found someone's lies, ignored texts, and stuff. They are such downers that probably I encountered once back time. But this time it is different. Someone's lies are intolerable when I always be the loyal one in this relationship. Oh, I correct it. That person's lies are intolerable. And you know, being so damn analytical for a fragile woman like me (downside, I know) is like adding salt to my wounded scar. Horrible.  Since I know it is not going to take me nowhere, so I stick to the quote above, which tells, 'if you are happened to always feel sad, don't think negatively towards ...

うれしい！or Ureshii means I'm happy in Japanese. And yeah, I am happy!! Extremely happy!! x)