Le Journale

Hisashiburiii (It's been a while...) I've already found the answer for these insecurities... As I grow older... I have come to the point where patience needs to be mastered, especially being patient with myself. No rush needed. Time will eventually show. Being kind to myself is never easy. My insecurities have been there since the beginning, haunting me like I owe them money. Then I was mean with myself, my mind, heart and body. I was never kind enough to those 3 of mine whenever I slipped up. I was never patient enough to let Universe and God, preferably to lead my way, destiny, my own path. Worst, I used to force everything from friendship to romance.  I admit that now. I need to learn how to be patient with myself. Learn to forgive myself when my insecurities strike back. Learn to handle my insecurities without blaming it to other people. Learn to forgive myself for the mistakes I did and let them be memories instead of labels. Learn to let those mistakes pr...

Deep reflective thought or contemplating is worth trying. You can connect everything and learn from it. After several days, I think it is the perfect time to do contemplating. Leaving the burden to carry another new one. Self-healing is the most important thing your body can help you release the tension. Through contemplating, you will also do self-healing. Malignancy tends to show its grin to the world, showing the best smile to the goodness. Yeah, isn't it confusing to accept the truth that cruelty can trun into kindness these days? Or how come people are willing to take side to the lies, instead of the truth?  What kind of a world we are living now? Where is the so-called 'goodness will kill badness' saying? It would never happen again in this wicked world. Instead, it offers you the opportunity to be a bad person. You will find it is easier to hurt someone. You will find your friend backstab you. You will find the people you used to know would show their backs a...