Le Journale

So here I am again... trying to release what is on my mind lately...(not a music album, if you see what I did there, lol) Yeah, I laugh at my own jokes. So lame. I have never been THIS ALIVE. By saying ALIVE, it means you live this life like other normal persons in the world. Distinguished by ages, genders, and jobs, now I can declare myself I have become one of zombies who get to work by 8 and come home by 5. I used to dream having a job like that, dressing up in formal outfits with cool coworkers in a tall building.... but now I am fed up with it. Have been there, done this and that, so what? I mean, what else is out there? what should I do next in order to be more alive than now? As if I am half-dead now... ............ (contemplating session while The Birth and Death of the Day from Explosions in the Sky is playing on the background) .................. ................ Ah, I miss my mom. She's been staying at grandma's crib s...

Wow. It's been 24 days since the last December 2015. I'd done my 2015 Goodreads reading challenge. What a year. I'd successfully read 20 books last year. What an accomplishment. I feel proud because it is not easy to spare some time reading classic works!  I hope some of you feel the same. I never intend to tell it is a hard work.  Just, *speechless* So yeah, in 2016, I challenge myself to read 30 books! *paksu* Wish me LUCK *because I started it with The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins and Night and Day by Virginia Woolf*  I need some lighter books................................... BANZAII

When life starts getting on your nerves or misplaced expectations get in your way, music has always been an escape... like always. Period. As a not-so-devoted Muslim, I know I should have gone to Him whenever I feel that kind of condition, but I don't want to trouble Him by the burdens He knows exactly I am capable of carrying. But still, I thank him in different way than other devoted Muslim persons. He knows everything, please. So don't judge me who are doing sin differently than you.  So yeah... music it is. And I have been loving this post-rock genre since Codes in the Clouds released their first album, As the Spirit Wanes, which was around 2011. Yup. Music hits me hard at face than you. LOL. So, post-rock is actually a sub genre of rock music, only characterized by rhythms without vocals. And guitars become the facilitators in the timbre and textures parts. So what will you get from this type of genre? Atmospheric. Ambient. Brilliant. Terrific. Music. You can...

Wow... it's been ages.  Hello, world. I am here, speaking to my parallel world where everything seems normal, while the world I am living on now is quite hectic. So I am reporting to you what my 'world' has been doing... Everybody has gone through something that has changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person they once were. Overheard that, or read it from some books I read this year. Well, actually it is almost the end of 2015. What about your resolutions? I have none. I am expecting life would lead me to a new and adventurous kind of experience each year. Just deal with the flow it leads you. I would love to talk for hours about this person, but her complexity is such a turn-off for me. To be honest, I always try my best to see the good in people. But it is different story with her. I cannot see anything 'good' on her, despite of her achievement on her careers, whatsoever. It is always about the way you comfort others Pointle...

A lot of things have happened... and I feel like I am fed up with this bullshit.  This person makes me fed up with the job I have now.  She is perfectionist as fuck I think all of the people in the world could not bear it. I always find myself loves being surrounded by the other colleagues at the office. But this person makes me want to resign from my job immediately whenever she is around. While I find myself easy to be happy with my friends, this person finds it hard to be jolly with her work unless it is of a very high standard. Like top notch. High-end. I cannot bear it. Being a perfectionist is pain in the ass. If a person does not get an A, they would think they have miserably failed as they feel the effort is not enough. While I am here, feeling like, just fucking do it with your heart. The intention is the most important thing when you do your job. It is not about who is going to be beaten up by your performance. It is about you are happy doing it. You ear...

Post to my own self in the future: You've done good. You were on the right track. You have the job that you love. You still have your family that loves you no matter how heavy you are. You were nice. You owed people nothing. You did your best to carry on the sadness from losing the people you love. You were as lovely as the rain in drought season. You are the petrichor. You are the rainbow. You regret nothing. You did what you believe. You have special relationship with God. You have never done something bad, or evil, or fishy, or cunning. You cannot die from sadness. So be strong Be brave and keep standing no matter where you are right now Even when you end up alone, Remember that God is with you Always I repeat: You cannot die from sadness or crying too much. You are a strong fella. Chin up. Cheer up. Fuel up your engine to live the life with your fullest potential. You will always be fine.

This book has arrived since August. On my way to complete the Clothbound Series! There are still so many books to buy. Yosh! Guess I only need to work even harder, ne? Beautiful, isn't it?