Hisashiburi!!!!
Post to my own self in the future:
You've done good.
You were on the right track.
You have the job that you love.
You still have your family that loves you no matter how heavy you are.
You were nice.
You owed people nothing.
You did your best to carry on the sadness from losing the people you love.
You were as lovely as the rain in drought season.
You are the petrichor.
You are the rainbow.
You regret nothing.
You did what you believe.
You have special relationship with God.
You have never done something bad, or evil, or fishy, or cunning.
You cannot die from sadness.
So be strong
Be brave
and keep standing
no matter where you are right now
Even when you end up alone,
Remember that God is with you
Always
I repeat:
You cannot die from sadness or crying too much.
You are a strong fella.
Chin up.
Cheer up.
Fuel up your engine to live the life with your fullest potential.