Le Journale

A lot of things have happened... and I feel like I am fed up with this bullshit.  This person makes me fed up with the job I have now.  She is perfectionist as fuck I think all of the people in the world could not bear it. I always find myself loves being surrounded by the other colleagues at the office. But this person makes me want to resign from my job immediately whenever she is around. While I find myself easy to be happy with my friends, this person finds it hard to be jolly with her work unless it is of a very high standard. Like top notch. High-end. I cannot bear it. Being a perfectionist is pain in the ass. If a person does not get an A, they would think they have miserably failed as they feel the effort is not enough. While I am here, feeling like, just fucking do it with your heart. The intention is the most important thing when you do your job. It is not about who is going to be beaten up by your performance. It is about you are happy doing it. You ear...

Post to my own self in the future: You've done good. You were on the right track. You have the job that you love. You still have your family that loves you no matter how heavy you are. You were nice. You owed people nothing. You did your best to carry on the sadness from losing the people you love. You were as lovely as the rain in drought season. You are the petrichor. You are the rainbow. You regret nothing. You did what you believe. You have special relationship with God. You have never done something bad, or evil, or fishy, or cunning. You cannot die from sadness. So be strong Be brave and keep standing no matter where you are right now Even when you end up alone, Remember that God is with you Always I repeat: You cannot die from sadness or crying too much. You are a strong fella. Chin up. Cheer up. Fuel up your engine to live the life with your fullest potential. You will always be fine.