Le Journale

Thank God we've made it this far!  It almost feels like living on crack shells every single day, don't you think? Of course you don't want it to break anytime soon. And I've been carrying a new role apart of a mother; that is a freelancer.  And I kinda enjoy it cause I have more time to spend and raise my son :) My son is like a shield for me. I know it is not right to put so much label on him yet, but it's true. Without him I might have been collapsed many times because of this COVID-stress. So I thak Lord for his tremendous joy and blessings.

"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born..." Let's go back to 2018 where I once vowed to not wanting to get married let alone bear any child inside my womb. Yeah, maybe that sounded mean but honestly, looking back all I wanted was wealth for my career and inner peace. I managed to get all of that, but surprisingly feeling empty still. What did I do wrong? I had money, good career, and stable workplace environment. I thought money can buy everything... Turned out I was wrong. And I needed someone to care and love me.  Like wise men say, "love is nowhere when you look for it, vice versa," so during 2018, I wasn't even looking. I randomly on ****r only to find some guys to talk to. I know that sounds cliche but you've got to trust me :D All I need was conversation with the same frequency of topics and guys. Luckily, I found a guy who isn't my type at all but he turns out a good guy, unlike most of guys on ****r. Once I get to know his ...

What a beginning of a year 2020 has been, don't you think? Many, including me are afraid that 2020 is off to a bad year. It is all started with the bushfire in Canberra last February. The death of Kobe Bryant, although with his flaws as a human being, he still leaves such hole in a lot of people also started this year in wrong direction. I remember growing up watching his posters and stickers decorating my older brother's room. It affected me too somehow, cause he was that good and passionate.  Moving on to the next month, well actually the virus, yes we better say it louder --Corona Virus, has been surrounding Wuhan area since October 2019. We have also found the patient 0 was actually American. With the spread infecting all over the world, including Indonesia, it is hard to actually see what is left for us in 2020, if there is any.  But for me, the end of 2019 up to this day, I can only count my blessings. Even in the darkest times, light strives to keep its pre...

Kita tahu banget kalau ada hal yang nggak bisa kita dapetin.  We cannot have it all. So choose wisely. When it comes to career and the wealth of peace of mind, which one do you choose? Sebagai wanita, gue merasa pilihan yang tersedia untuk kita itu terbatas jika dibandingkan dengan pria. Seperti takdir hidup kita tuh udah punya list-nya sendiri, dan kita hanya tinggal ngikutin sambil contreng list tersebut satu-persatu. Pertama, memasuki kehidupan young adult, tanggung jawab kita memang belum banyak, tapi di usia 20-25 tahun ini pasti pilihan 'menikah' sudah menjadi list pertama yang harus dipenuhi. Mencoba untuk ignore list tersebut, ketika di sekeliling kita banyak wanita sedang berlari demi menuju garis final a.k.a pernikahan? Mana bisa? Kedua, mungkin list pertama di rentang usia tersebut masih bisa kita ignore, ya, kita ga bisa benar-benar ignore gitu aja karena list tersebut masih ngikutin ke manapun kita para wanita berada di dunia, despite karir dan...

I should have reviewed Game of Thrones first, but its ending disappoints me BIG TIME. It is only fair if we start a new page with a brand new TV show, like The Terror or Chernobyl, don't you think? Those two have successfully stolen my heart up to this day. The scenes are clear and bright like a summer day.  In a nutshell, this show is an adaptation of its book, with the same title; The Terror by Dan Simmons.  It is beautifully bleak and full of horror... I reviewed it through Instagram Stories, so hopefully, these images filled with honest review and a little bit of spoiler will do justice to the show.  Check this one out!

"Are we there yet?" Mungkin hal itu yang sering kulantunkan dalam kantuk selama perjalanan road trip lintas Jawa bersama keluarga. "Are we..." Belum bulat namun tubuh sudah menggeliat tukar posisi tidur yang nyenyak; menempel jendela kaca mobil Fortuner 2.7 G Luxury warna hitam. Ya, memang seperti itulah kerjaanku di dalam mobil. Mungkin tidur memang obat dari ketakutan berada dalam ruang sempit. Membayangkan ubun-ubun yang menempel dekat dengan atap mobil saja sudah berhasil membuat bulu kudukku merinding. Thanks to claustrophobia. Fast forward ke hari ini, mungkin pertanyaan tersebut bisa digunakan untuk hal lain. Seiring dengan kesibukan mencari 'angka' di ibu kota, kegiatan road trip seringnya hanya berujung di WhatsApp grup keluarga saja. Seperti Hari Raya tahun ini yang seharusnya bisa membakar rindu belasan tahunku pada kampung halaman, bau tanah kota Solo, atau panasnya kebun binatang Jurug, semua rencana yang tersusun rapih untuk mengunjung...