Becoming a Mother

"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born..."

Let's go back to 2018 where I once vowed to not wanting to get married let alone bear any child inside my womb. Yeah, maybe that sounded mean but honestly, looking back all I wanted was wealth for my career and inner peace. I managed to get all of that, but surprisingly feeling empty still.

What did I do wrong? I had money, good career, and stable workplace environment. I thought money can buy everything...

Turned out I was wrong. And I needed someone to care and love me. 

Like wise men say, "love is nowhere when you look for it, vice versa," so during 2018, I wasn't even looking. I randomly on ****r only to find some guys to talk to. I know that sounds cliche but you've got to trust me :D All I need was conversation with the same frequency of topics and guys. Luckily, I found a guy who isn't my type at all but he turns out a good guy, unlike most of guys on ****r. Once I get to know his intention is not **S nor **B, I asked him to continue talking through WhatsApp. And the rest is history.

This guy is now my husband. Yes, I might gain controversy. It's a bad thing once my siblings found out. I hope it stays here lol 

Once you know, you know. It's the gut feeling which speaks. You have to trust your gut feelings, okay.

Long story short we made a vow to be husband and wife on the 24th of August last year. And on the 3rd of October the same year, I found out I was pregnant. Actually everything went that fast, like a blink of an eye. It is too fast I am afraid I take it for granted. 

Now it's been 3 months of becoming a mother, things are pretty hard, but fun :) 

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