Le Journale

So here I am... enjoying the time at this hour... It's been ages actually! I used to stay up late and feeling smart-assy. Just when I avoided drama, using such effort, some people just couldn't keep their hands off from ruining it... from losing my pants off...  But that's the past... I am easy to let go useless stuff.... and mostly, people. Starting the 11th of July, I am about to head to a new journey... YEAY! New vibes, new environment, new (cool) workplace with more people to get to know!  Because that is the beautiful side of life. When you think everything was doing fine, life seemed hating every bits of it. So it is always on its way to destroy me, making me detouring through up and downhills. But that's fine... I'm going to survive!  

Hisashiburiii (It's been a while...) I've already found the answer for these insecurities... As I grow older... I have come to the point where patience needs to be mastered, especially being patient with myself. No rush needed. Time will eventually show. Being kind to myself is never easy. My insecurities have been there since the beginning, haunting me like I owe them money. Then I was mean with myself, my mind, heart and body. I was never kind enough to those 3 of mine whenever I slipped up. I was never patient enough to let Universe and God, preferably to lead my way, destiny, my own path. Worst, I used to force everything from friendship to romance.  I admit that now. I need to learn how to be patient with myself. Learn to forgive myself when my insecurities strike back. Learn to handle my insecurities without blaming it to other people. Learn to forgive myself for the mistakes I did and let them be memories instead of labels. Learn to let those mistakes pr